Faith seeking understanding, my personal journey towards a deeper knowledge of and intimacy with God, the cosmos, humanity and myself through thoughts, words and (occasionally) images, is a series of [hopefully] daily reflections I’m writing with the purpose of publishing something on a regular basis for others to read, either here, at joncarllewis.com or among my writings at Medium.com.
Less than a half hour left in the Old Year and I’ve been dragging my feet on starting this reflection, even though a first sentence has been presenting itself over and over for the past hour: I need to write about race.
I feel this need strongly as I read the writings of so many other, intelligent people of color (and some white people) on race, but I am not sure what is mine to say. I have found it easy to respond to other people’s articles on their experiences with race. For some reason, commenting on the wisdom and insight of others is an easy thing for me to do.
But I feel I need to add my voice to the chorus of people speaking up and speaking out about race and how it affects my life in subtle and not-so-subtle ways and touches the people around me in ways they are painfully aware of or, sometimes, not aware of at all.
However, I feel that I’m not going to produce the definitive essay on race in the next twenty minutes, or, perhaps, in the next twenty days. But it is something I resolve to do, sometime this year. I will have at least 365 opportunities to write about race, starting tomorrow, and I will take at least some of those opportunities to reflect on what it has meant for me to grow up and to continue to find myself in America as a black man.
It’s been so easy for me to grasp being gay in writing. It’s been so easy to convey what type of Christian I see myself as. But I have not articulated what it means for me to say, “I am a Black American,” or, even, “I am Black, and I am proud of that fact.”
That will change this year.
It must, because, locked in my heart, deep in my heart, there is language that needs to be spoken and songs that need to be sung on this theme.
And, if it looks like I am going to forget to take up this topic over the course of the year, remind me.
It’s important. Not just for me but for the healing of our society and the establishment of the Kingdom of God on earth as it is in heaven.
I feel it is that important.
Thank you for your time and attention.
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May God richly bless you on your journey.