Reflection 003. Learning to love my mother, learning to love the world

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Life happens.

I’m writing early today because my mother is sick. She’s sicker than she’s letting on, and so I will be going to spend time with her today and perhaps, stay the night.

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Reflection 003. Learning to love my mother, learning to love the world

Book Review: Light Fell by Evan Fallenberg

Light Fell

Light Fell by Evan Fallenberg

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I thoroughly enjoyed this book as I did his later work The Parting Gift. So many good reviews have been written about this book on Goodreads that I’m not entirely sure what new to say at this point. It is refreshing to read about a gay man in middle age and a gay story that focuses on the attempt at reconciliation with a family, rather than the oft-told stories of young gay men being estranged from their families. I hope for m ore literature like this; it shows a maturing of the genre as all of us, G-d willing, will mature.

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Book Review: Light Fell by Evan Fallenberg

Faith seeking understanding #037: On not breaking the chain

Faith seeking understanding, my personal journey towards a deeper knowledge of and intimacy with God, the cosmos, humanity and myself through thoughts, words and (occasionally) images, is a series of [hopefully] daily reflections I’m writing with the purpose of publishing something on a regular basis for others to read, either here, at joncarllewis.com or among my writings at Medium.com.

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Yesterday was a false alarm. Today is the real thing. I’ve spent the whole day in bed, most of it asleep, most of my waking time trying to decide whether I was too hot or too cold, wondering when or if my headache was going to let up. Today was the real sick day; yesterday was just a warmup. I feel terrible.

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Faith seeking understanding #037: On not breaking the chain

Faith seeking understanding #033: On approaching the blank page with fear and trembling

Faith seeking understanding, my personal journey towards a deeper knowledge of and intimacy with God, the cosmos, humanity and myself through thoughts, words and (occasionally) images, is a series of [hopefully] daily reflections I’m writing with the purpose of publishing something on a regular basis for others to read, either here, at joncarllewis.com or among my writings at Medium.com.

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Now comes the scary part: facing the blank page. I wonder to myself why it should be so, that after over a month of showing up, being true, cranking out the words… that approaching the blank page fills me with so much fear and not a little dread. Is it true what Steven Pressfield asserts in The War of Art? That resistance never gives up? Given my experience of the past few weeks, I can safely say that—at least for me—the fear of the blank page doesn’t go away.

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Faith seeking understanding #030: Wrestling with the Bible

Faith seeking understanding, my personal journey towards a deeper knowledge of and intimacy with God, the cosmos, humanity and myself through thoughts, words and (occasionally) images, is a series of [hopefully] daily reflections I’m writing with the purpose of publishing something on a regular basis for others to read, either here, at joncarllewis.com or among my writings at Medium.com.

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Every so often, I get the urge to read the Bible straight through from beginning to end, Genesis through Revelations, just as I used to do as a boy every night before bed. But I usually stop myself, especially after looking at various schemes for reading the whole Bible in a year, say, or in a shorter time period than that. I used to read the Bible as one would read a novel: one compelling, coherent, unbroken narrative beginning with the Creation and ending with the taking up into heaven of those who believe in Jesus’ name. I read the Bible as I was taught, that it was the story of Jesus Christ from beginning to end and was pretty much dictated to a long series of holy scribes by the Holy Spirit. Even in what I used to call the “Old Testament,” the story was designed to provide proof of an all-powerful, unchanging Father God, and induce in the hearts of all who read the story a conviction that they needed to accept Christ as their personal Savior or, literally, go to Hell. And then I went to seminary.

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Faith seeking understanding #026: Seeking a contemplative, countercultural new year

Faith seeking understanding, my personal journey towards a deeper knowledge of and intimacy with God, the cosmos, humanity and myself through thoughts, words and (occasionally) images, is a series of [hopefully] daily reflections I’m writing with the purpose of publishing something on a regular basis for others to read, either here, at joncarllewis.com or among my writings at Medium.com.

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Happy New Year! I sincerely hope that your new year is off to a good start, that you are in a good place mentally at least and have some hope for the coming year.

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Faith seeking understanding #026: Seeking a contemplative, countercultural new year