Faith seeking understanding #069: My spiritual ego

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Faith seeking understanding, my personal journey towards a deeper knowledge of and intimacy with God, the cosmos, humanity and myself through thoughts, words and (occasionally) images, is a series of [hopefully] daily reflections I’m writing with the purpose of publishing something on a regular basis for others to read, either here, at joncarllewis.com or among my writings at Medium.com.

Inspired by Jonas Ellison’s essay; “A rant on Lutheran theology and contemplation.”

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Faith seeking understanding #068: Momentum supercedes my will

Faith seeking understanding, my personal journey towards a deeper knowledge of and intimacy with God, the cosmos, humanity and myself through thoughts, words and (occasionally) images, is a series of [hopefully] daily reflections I’m writing with the purpose of publishing something on a regular basis for others to read, either here, at joncarllewis.com or among my writings at Medium.com.

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Momentum takes over even when the will flags

And I am moved to write

Having just finished reading the first draft

(Actually, the first fragments)

Of my novel.

Today I return to my practice

After two days of having fallen ill

And having fallen asleep to let that illness run it’s course.

But now the sickness is gone

And by habit, I return

Thanks for being here

To welcome me back.

Thank you for your time and attention.
I’d love to know your thoughts on what you’ve read.
Please comment, below, or email me at joncarllewis@gmail.com.
May God richly bless you on your journey.

Unless otherwise noted, this page and its contents © 2018-2020 Jon Carl Lewis.

Faith seeking understanding #068: Momentum supercedes my will

Faith seeking understanding #067: The hard work means it’s real

Faith seeking understanding, my personal journey towards a deeper knowledge of and intimacy with God, the cosmos, humanity and myself through thoughts, words and (occasionally) images, is a series of [hopefully] daily reflections I’m writing with the purpose of publishing something on a regular basis for others to read, either here, at joncarllewis.com or among my writings at Medium.com.

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I worked hard today. At my job. As a novelist. I spent hours printing out my novel’s manuscript and forcing myself to sit and read as many of the 72,000 words I’ve written as fast as I could comprehend what I was saying about what was going on. At times I had to take a breather. At times I had to pace back and forth in my office. At times I felt like I ought to be doing something—anything—else. But I worked today. I worked hard, and at several points during my work I found myself smiling.

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Faith seeking understanding #066: Writing envy

Faith seeking understanding, my personal journey towards a deeper knowledge of and intimacy with God, the cosmos, humanity and myself through thoughts, words and (occasionally) images, is a series of [hopefully] daily reflections I’m writing with the purpose of publishing something on a regular basis for others to read, either here, at joncarllewis.com or among my writings at Medium.com.

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Someone wrote today what I wished I had written tonight. I will allow myself to pout a little. The author is a little farther ahead of me on solving a problem we both have—and has adopted the same method to overcome it. But he thought to make it into today’s reflection for him and I didn’t.

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Faith seeking understanding #065: Slogging through storycraft land

Faith seeking understanding, my personal journey towards a deeper knowledge of and intimacy with God, the cosmos, humanity and myself through thoughts, words and (occasionally) images, is a series of [hopefully] daily reflections I’m writing with the purpose of publishing something on a regular basis for others to read, either here, at joncarllewis.com or among my writings at Medium.com.

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I spent hours in storycraft land today. Most of that time was well spent, although I didn’t advance my word count (and probably decided to lose more pages than I will keep).

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Faith seeking understanding #065: Slogging through storycraft land

Faith seeking understanding #064: Reclaiming pleasure

Faith seeking understanding, my personal journey towards a deeper knowledge of and intimacy with God, the cosmos, humanity and myself through thoughts, words and (occasionally) images, is a series of [hopefully] daily reflections I’m writing with the purpose of publishing something on a regular basis for others to read, either here, at joncarllewis.com or among my writings at Medium.com.

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Pleasure.

Pleasure is the type of word that makes me blush.

That makes me feel guilty.

That brings me to the brink of shame.

But why?

Pleasure draws my attention to the beautiful and the good.

Pleasure allows me to participate in the sacred flow of life.

Pleasure is the reason to get out of bed.

Pleasure is the reason to get to work.

I’ve got some work to do.

And that’s beating back the Puritan who wants to choke pleasure out of my life.

And with it, the will to live.

Thank you for your time and attention.
I’d love to know your thoughts on what you’ve read.
Please comment, below, or email me at joncarllewis@gmail.com.
May God richly bless you on your journey.

Unless otherwise noted, this page and its contents © 2018-2020 Jon Carl Lewis.

Faith seeking understanding #064: Reclaiming pleasure

Faith seeking understanding #063: On the limits of hero worship

Faith seeking understanding, my personal journey towards a deeper knowledge of and intimacy with God, the cosmos, humanity and myself through thoughts, words and (occasionally) images, is a series of [hopefully] daily reflections I’m writing with the purpose of publishing something on a regular basis for others to read, either here, at joncarllewis.com or among my writings at Medium.com.

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I suppose one should be very careful about choosing one’s heroes. Pick someone too brilliant, and one runs the risk of sure frustration. Pick someone too, uh, not brilliant, and one’s aspirations are too easy to attain. However, the heart picks whom the heart will pick, and so I have become saddled with Gore Vidal.

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Faith seeking understanding #063: On the limits of hero worship

Faith seeking understanding #062: Blaming it on the cats

Faith seeking understanding, my personal journey towards a deeper knowledge of and intimacy with God, the cosmos, humanity and myself through thoughts, words and (occasionally) images, is a series of [hopefully] daily reflections I’m writing with the purpose of publishing something on a regular basis for others to read, either here, at joncarllewis.com or among my writings at Medium.com.

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The cats aren’t helping me write tonight. This upsets me. When I don’t need them to help me write, they’re all over me and my keyboard. Inquisitive and demanding, they insist on knowing what I am doing, why I am doing it and when I am going to stop so they may receive the focus of my attention instead.

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Faith seeking understanding #062: Blaming it on the cats

Faith seeking understanding #061: Fantasizing about becoming Gore Vidal

Faith seeking understanding, my personal journey towards a deeper knowledge of and intimacy with God, the cosmos, humanity and myself through thoughts, words and (occasionally) images, is a series of [hopefully] daily reflections I’m writing with the purpose of publishing something on a regular basis for others to read, either here, at joncarllewis.com or among my writings at Medium.com.

I have decided, when I grow up, to be Gore Vidal. I think there is still time. I just finished reading the first chapter of his Palimpsest: A Memoir, and I fell in love with its language and breezy tone. Of course, I need to figure out how to meet and gather stories on hundreds of famous and wealthy people… well, I can dream. At least I can aspire to write with similar acerbic tone and flair at some point if I study him well. Which should be easy to do, given how enjoyable I find his prose.

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Faith seeking understanding #061: Fantasizing about becoming Gore Vidal

Faith seeking understanding #060: Writing for an audience vs. writing for myself

Faith seeking understanding, my personal journey towards a deeper knowledge of and intimacy with God, the cosmos, humanity and myself through thoughts, words and (occasionally) images, is a series of [hopefully] daily reflections I’m writing with the purpose of publishing something on a regular basis for others to read, either here, at joncarllewis.com or among my writings at Medium.com.

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Over the past hour, I’ve written more than 1500 words which I never intend to see the light of day. These are not those words, but I couldn’t have written these without them. I didn’t write anything particularly shameful, or even secret. I was simply writing in a mode different and distinct from the mode I need to be in to write for publication. None of it was wasted. None of it was gratuitous. And none of it was fit for anyone’s eyes but mine (and, possibly, my biographer). And that’s perfectly alright.

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Faith seeking understanding #060: Writing for an audience vs. writing for myself