I understand myself to be an Enneagram 4 with a 3-wing and a sexual/social instinctual variant.

So what does that mean?

The Core: 4 (The Intense Creative)

Enneagram Fours have the motivational need to express their uniqueness and be authentic. Fours value individualism and as a result, feelings, self-expression and purpose will be important to them. They are quite romantic at heart and appreciate beauty and creating meaning for themselves and for others. At their best, Fours are experienced as sensitive yet content. They offer the gift of equanimity and authenticity to themselves and the world. A less healthy Four may feel misunderstood, while others experience them as melancholic and temperamental. This pattern stems from the Four’s acute awareness of their own wounds and flaws. – Integrative Enneagram Solutions

The Wing: 3

The Instinctual Variant: Sexual/Social (Competition)

This Four subtype is intense and vocal about their needs and feelings and are often described as ‘more shameless than shameful’ and mistype with Three and Eight. They tend to be demanding and competitive, escaping suffering by being the best in what they do. Demanding that others appreciate their needs may lead to a cycle of rejection, frustration and anger. Their ability to express these feelings of demand and anger may mask how sad or confused they really feel. – Integrative Enneagram Solutions

For more information about the enneagram system and philosophy in general, see the website for the Enneagram Institute or Integrative Enneagram Solutions.